12.27.2006
They were ill
| Tuesday, July 18, 2006, 4:46 pm, a text messages get into my cp twice from unknown number. “Ma’am, umuwi ka na raw sabi ng nanay mo, ang anak mo isinugod sa hospital“, this is how the message appeared. Hurriedly, I got my bag and get off the office without punching in my card in the machine after a call to the unknown number. The man in the line was not able to detail my kid’s situation; the only thing he assured me was it was Mikmik who rushed to the hospital. Fainted, I guess, this is how my colleagues described me after receiving that message. Loss of patience; more than an hour travel from work to the hospital, what could anyone expect? Another message came in “Six times vomiting pero ayaw ng nanay mong ipa admit, anong desisyon mo? Baka ma dehydrate, kawawa naman.” I want to burst into cry. I instructed the nurse, who happened to be my classmate and friend during my high school days, who sent me the message to do what is necessary for my princess, I agreed with the conditions over the phone wishing that everything will be of my baby’s benefits. 6:30 pm, Mikmik and I embraced each other in the hospital lobby. My princess looked pale and sickly. How this thing happened, I murmured, I had left her that morning in good condition, cannot trace any symptom that she was ill. Few kiss exchanged was enough before meeting the doctor, they were decided to confine my baby due to her Urinary Tract Infection in the level of 30 wherein the normal should be 0-2. But before that, Gina (the nurse) injected her two times that horrified my little princess every time Gina was coming inside her room for checking. I thought everything was fine after being released the next day but I was wrong. Wednesday, July 19, 2006, after dinner, Intan throws up his food over lavatory. My head was turning bulk like a balloon as I felt with the thought that it might be the same as Mikmik’s case. Fortunately, it happened only once that night until he ate his breakfast for his school, he did once again. I and my mother agreed to bring him into the hospital with my mother as his guardian, that time, I was not able to recover from stress and I have the feeling that me too needs to be hospitalize. The doctor found Intan acidic. He was advised to lessen oily and salty foods. There where my calvary taken its place. I can not imagine what should I prefer for his meal, he only ate fried and nothing else. But you know I was wrong. I judged him the way I knew him, as a kid, without thinking that he is nearly to be a man. Now, I do not have any problem for his food. He eats anything in the table, from the rays of vegetable to a bunch of fruits. |
12.22.2006
Baffled
| Another day seems going through accomplishing little of expected effort while tasks are waiting to be given attention. Quite unimpressed monitoring day’s achievement of fellows and comparing mechanisms used, power of humility took its place in the issuance of forgiveness for the undetached personal matters caused of tardiness. Why does human consign constantly identical explanation to prove innocence? Standard operating procedures usually violate by subordinate and how leaders could accept meekness? It’s the mere problem I always wanted to resolve; unyielding heart would probably advantageous. But predicament is accompanied by decisions, tough adjustment might be taken, new transformation would create chaos to subordinates. Huh! Really rough handling people in the organization; maybe working with aliens would be different. Hmmm…I need to try! |
12.18.2006
I need a Chance
| I have promised Intan one thing, I will loss my weight within a month starting this week. My son always complaining about my figure this time, maybe he felt bad about my looks. He even told me many times “Mommy, dati ang ganda mo, nung sexy ka pa!” Hahahah! This thing is one of my fears before. I was afraid to gain weight and earn fats all over my body and face. I have been a figure conscious then, that was during the days I am not contented to my life. The days when I was asking for more than God have showered to me. But realization and acceptance of truth came like a robber. In just a blink of my eyes, everything changed. It was a miracle that one day, after a long time losing of my soul; I saw the beauty of life. After a long night in my life, I woke up in a paradise-like world. Fears had gone. I don’t know how it happened, but surely it is God’s will. Burpp! Oh my! I have done with my snack, a roll of lumpiang shanghai and a glass of cold water. I took snack two hours after my heavy lunch. Ohh, poor me, how could I loss my weight in this case? I can’t resist taking heavy lunch and snack and back home is waiting a heavy dinner. Oh, well, I guess I need to make an excuse to Intan again (as I always do) and compromise to start my diet next week. |
12.16.2006
It's Nice to Meet Old Friends Again
| I have never imagined mingling back with former colleagues way back so long ago but you know still the feeling of curiosity on what they’ve come up with after several years intensify my will to go through searching their own pages. Bingo! I achieved so much than I expected! Through Ms. Myra Maranan Atienza’s links things got better, favorable to my desire, leads me to my goal of finding former students and friends.Whew! Thanks to you Ms. Maranan, you may not know how much happy I am now seeing the Perpetualite graduates holding success in their chosen career, from family life to career life. And you know, thinking that once in my life I’ve been a part of them is one of the glorious memories I ever have and would be treasured forever.Wishing everyone of them continuous growth in the field they’re outshining, happy and contentment in their family life (as I’m gaining these days), further blessings from the Lord and, peace of mind! |
12.14.2006
New Me
| I’ve changed a lot, thorough analysis reveals. From being a mouth-zippered woman into a talkative one, from a low self-confidence nature into unbend personality.To summary what my life is this time divulge comfort and satisfaction that everybody’s wishes to gain. The luxury of being showered with love from family members, career growth, and spiritual guidance, caused the fulfillment.Believe in yourself, trust on your capabilities, and live with your belief was the keys putting me up the ladder. But as a normal human, living without satisfaction, continuous self-development is what I am dreaming lying into the principle that this is the sole way to really go on high. |